The "times" have changed

A friend and I had this funny little habit of calling our seasonal outfits and accessories "times". I guess part of this was because of the great times we had while acquiring and wearing them in addition to the fact that… some times our "times" were Ovah! and we needed an update. Just like our clothes went out of fashion so did our relationship. I have to laugh every now and again because really I thought she and I would be friends forever. I pictured us being fabulous at some resort in Palm Springs. I miss her dearly and it feels like she's died in my world sometimes. I can see her via modern technology, but I am grieving the communication we used to share. I don't think anyone ever really knew me the way she did, the good the bad the ugly. Till this day I'm not really certain what I did to hurt her, piss her off, or become so unbearable. I guess like the saying goes people come into our lives for an allotted time period, be it a day, week, month or years, or time was just OVER.
I don't think that any severed friendship has hurt me more than this one. I have lost many folks along the way and I've tossed the situation up to the heavens as one of those…"eh, that's life" calls but I truly am confused. I guess you can say this post is inspired by grief, and a minimal act of desperation spirited by shear confusion. All those that know me know that I cherish my friends to the point at which I would give up a limb or organ to keep them alive. So to all of you in my life right now I want to say "I Love you." I know you've heard me say it a billion + times and it's because I believe in telling you while you're here, and you'll never have to question. To the others I bid a warm Good Bye, you'll totally be missed:
(I did name the names here... but I figured yall didn't need to know all that)